the strangest things...

listening to: shimmer ~ fuel
feeling: a bit crazy

"she says that love is for fools that fall behind, and i'm somewhere between never really know a killer from a savior. 'til i break at the bend."

i promised a certain little child that i'll try to blog while i'm here, to keep her posted about the stuff happening to me.

haha! well, here goes.

i'm in bacolod na (obviously!) haha! i've been drinking since i got here... and it wasn't as much fun as i thought it'd be. :(

i got totally wasted on my first night. i drank on an empty stomach k'se. haha. stupid me, i never learn. plus, the fact that i mixed my drinks... tsk tsk... need i say more? basta, sobrang icky talaga! horrible evening... sayang nga since it was going so well pa naman...

but i love the fact that i can bug my siblings. cool.

this will probably be my most disjointed entry but i'm feeling kinda hugger-muggerish (my word of the day courtesy of ruso and his pitiful attempt to beat me at scrabble! heehee!) and i'm still not sure of how i feel--about a lot of things.

on the up-side though, i AM happy to be here. even if certain things still make me feel like curling up into a ball and weep.

yup, the operative word here is weep--not cry.

my sadness is too intricately fused into my regret that i cannot tell one from the other.

and so my heart still weeps, even if my body refuses to shed any more tears. which is better for me i think. "i carry you in my heart, i carry you in my heart."

haha. ang drama. but i am ok. despite everything, i really am ok.

oh, one last thing. a really old friend found me on friendster. heehee. natuwa lang ako.

haha! i was thinking about deleting my account pa naman last night eh. hehe. it still has its uses pala.