our very own miracle :)

it's been ages since i last wrote anything. not because life has been boring, but rather too much has been going on and well, i've been too lazy to do much more than take it in and enjoy it.

i recently (ok, so not that recently :D) found out that jeff and i are about to become parents. yep, apparently my feeling "macho" hubby is more virile than he thinks. LOL!

in a nutshell, in about 7 months- our beautiful baby will be set loose upon the world-- and God help us all! because seriously, i can't help but believe that my baby will probably be as much of a brat as i am.

anyway, the whole point of this inane rambling of mine is one thing: as much as i know that i have a little creature growing inside of me, it hasn't really sunken in.

until yesterday, that is.

i heard our baby's heartbeat for the first time yesterday and... good grief, i got teary-eyed, (much to the shame of the hard ass that i am) hahaha! but it really was magical. i was so nervous while my OB (dr. anita poblete) was searching for the sound, and i kept praying to hear something, anything that would tell me that "this is real' and that jeff and i really are going to have a baby. the waiting was pure torture. i thought to myself that i shouldn't feel sad if i didn't hear it, because maybe she (yes, i strongly believe that i will give birth to a baby girl more beautiful than me!) was still too small.

and then it happened.

and i cried.

it was overwhelming to hear, and reassuring. her heartbeat was fast but steady-- and strong. it's so sappy but i don't think i can fully express my feelings into words. i'm sure jeff would have cried if he had been there (due to work, he unfortunately couldn't accompany me to the OB yesterday and missed out on this really cool experience-- SAYANG!).

so there. i don't want to get all mushy and stuff, but i felt like i had to share at least some of my joy with the world. :)